AM I IN DRAMA?
Wednesday, June 20, 2012 | 5:05 AM | 0 comments
I don't know why I like to break people's heart. Am I a heart breaker? Where are the love, happiness,joy everything that makes
life great? Do I deserve sadness? I
need someone now. I wanna hug someone, I wanna cry on someone shoulder. I
wanna express everything that I feel. I wanna cry until I have no more
tears. If there's a shooting star, I really need a wish right now. I
wanna wish that my life is not so miserable. Everyday I am so lonely. I
need a friend that I can really trust. I always wish that I could die
fast. But I wanna know what my future is gonna be. Am I gonna be miserable
or I'm gonna have my happiness back? It depends in my future. People say, if you
smile everyday, your problem will just disappear. But I tried it doesn't
happen. I don't wanna pretend that I'm happy.
People say I'm happy but I'm confused.. I don't really understand what
is the meaning of life. Why we had to live? Why we need to love ? Why we
need happiness to get through the day? Why can't we go on just normal
without those emotions? Why ? Why do we begin if we don’t plan to
finish? Why do we love if we don’t want to get hurt? Why do we live if
someday we must die? Why do we smile if we really hurt inside? Why do
we frown when everything is upside down? Why do we plan but not take to
action? Why do we cry when someday it will be alright? Why do we get
mad if we really should be glad? Why do we morn when somebody is gone? Why do we say hi if we really mean goodbye? Why do we question what
shouldn't be questioned? And answer what shouldn't be answered? tell me
now? Why? What is LOVE? I don't understand. And why does love never
find me instead broken hearts surround me. And once again the wrong man
found me. Saying he wouldn't hurt me but in the end he didn't deserve me.
What Is Love? And why doesn't love know my name? I prayed to god that it
would change. But true love never came. What Is Love? I ask myself time
after time, why is love so blind, or I shouldn't waste my time. I guess broken hearts are only made for me. Because love finds everyone else but
love never found me. Ya now I know. I shouldn't be love by someone. I
should be alone and be happy by myself. This is my life, now I know. It is
so great that it make me cry. I'MMA NO ONE!
Ohmy. This is what I wrote before in my diary. Too many question. Too little to answered.
Shower Singer v.V
Monday, June 18, 2012 | 2:44 AM | 0 comments
Fuhh. Blog is already berhabuk. Haha. Tiup sikit *tiup*Hi. Please call me back. Haha. Tak sabitz -.- Kalau boleh I merepek je. K, harini saya tak pergi sekolah sebab saya ingat saya demam. Mengade lah saya ni. I'm just not feeling well. Penat. Headache. Mhm. Tak tahu lah kenapa. But I'll be alright. Guess what exam kali ni. I got a lot of B's not A's. Ohmy. I'll be dead if my mom know how sucks is my result is. My AddMath got 0% Haha. Teruknya lah xD Rasa lawak pula cakap pasal AddMath ni. K. Enough.
Drama Class
Drama class? Guess what I'm in drama. Yes At last I can be an actress ^^ I can't wait to act. I got the script to be an evil man name Lord Septic. I have to be very evil. Hohohoho. Teacher gave us 1 month for us to practise. Oh man -.- There're alot to remember. How can I remember all the script. Damn. Why can't I be the narrator. But I love acting. Acting is my thing. I hope I get an A+ in my drama class. Next year I'm gonna join the musical. And I will be directing it. Haha. Please next year is my last year :( Let me be the director.
Time: 0822PM
K. I'm back. Tadi just ambil angin kat Taman Bandar. Then, ingat nak pergi Tutti Frutti bungkus jap. But my mom called suruh bersiap cause nak dinner with the family. Mhm. Saya tk nak makan. I just ate little. I don't have selera to eat. I told you I'm not feeling well. From yesterday afternoon till today. I didn't eat. Seriously. Harini nak nak angkat barang naik tangga. Ohmy tkde energy langsung -.- Haha. But I'm strong. Haha. Katang lah sangat -_______-
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Nak tahu kenapa saya tulis pasal ni? Sebab.......... *drumroll* Saya jumpa orang yang saya pernah sayang dulu. Nama dia K_ _ _ _ _ _ W_ _ _ _ _ Yeh, sesiapa yang dapat jawab. Anda akan menang sebuah kereta BMW Series 3. Hahahahaha xD Menang lah sangat. K, back to the point. He was taking us to tc actually. But it was a big suprise sebab Jazz minta dia tolong ambil -.- Ratatarararata circus ratatarararata afro circus afro circus pokadot pokadot move it! *menyanyi pula lagu Madagascar ni* Haha.Okay. Okay. Enough. K. Enough is enough. Dia ambil kat CKT. Bila dia sampai. Dari jauh nampak senyuman dia :O Senyuman dia.... amat.... manis..... This is SERIOUS.. Dalam hati saya cakap, tolonglah jangan buat I jatuh cinta lagi. I'm really really really scared. Fuhh. So sepanjang perjalanan. Agak senyap lah. Ni Jazz. She is so fuckin' worrying about the KL Comp. But in the end guess won? SJIB. Congrats dude. Saya pula menyanyi. Tahulah perangai saya. Di mana ada lagu. Di situlah saya menyanyi. Haha. Ayaaaat~ Dia pun ada nyanyi. Sedapnya lewww suara dia. Haha. We didn't talk alot. Time kat tc. Nak join karaoke. But, iz the very ramai pipal Mengeletar lah pulewww~ Next time lah. #TERHAMPA. Lepastu, dalam kul 1030PM, rasanya lah Kitaorang pun gerak balik. Then nampak satu banner ni. [PESTA DURIAN] Dia tanya pergi tak? Huish, Pesta Durian?? Tak nak ah. Busuk! Then, time dia tengah drive I cakap sorry sebab menyusahkan :( Then, dia cam It's okay. But. I ni rasa bersalah lah pula. Mhm, sampai rumah. Saya salam dia. Then saya cepat cepat masuk. Dalam hati mesti kena beleber ni. Iz tk sedap hati from the first we arrive tc D: Btw, tertinggal varsity dalam kereta dia. Kenapalah boleh tertinggal. At that time. I was wondering. That was my last seeing him. Bu I left my Varsity. Hm. Then malam tu. I like trauma. All those flashback came back to my memory. Air mata pun mengalir. Saya cam kenapa saya boleh nangis lagi :( Sangat sangat sedih, you know? Saya try stop nangis. But I can't mata pula bengkak sudah. Eyebag pun dah besar pula -.- I honestly text him to tell him that I can't accept what we're before. Dia cakap it's his fault. And he said sorry cause he can't make me smile and he made me cry because of him. Lagilah saya nangis. Ayat tu buat I cam. Kenapalah dia cakap ayat tu :( Then dia cakap dia baca blog saya. I was like WHAT?! Iz the very lama. Don't read lah. Hm. I never ever blame people. I blame me. But I'm okay with it. Maybe? Seriously? Why I'm so lemah? Aku telah sesat menuju ke hatimu. Please kuatkan hati saya. Adakah hidup I ni penuh dengan kegelapan? Sebab saya tk pernah rasa kegembiraan yang betul. But. Lastly. I want you to know that.
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But then today you hantar varsity I. And I get to see your face again. K. I don't want to say alot.
20 April 2012- It was Donald Duck's Birthday~
So Happy Birthday Muhammad Habeeb Syafuan bin Mohammad Rasely <3
Sayang Abang. Muahhhhh :* Soryy kalau cupcake yang saya buat tk sedap tau :(