AM I IN DRAMA?
Wednesday, June 20, 2012 | 5:05 AM | 0 comments
I don't know why I like to break people's heart. Am I a heart breaker? Where are the love, happiness,joy everything that makes
life great? Do I deserve sadness? I
need someone now. I wanna hug someone, I wanna cry on someone shoulder. I
wanna express everything that I feel. I wanna cry until I have no more
tears. If there's a shooting star, I really need a wish right now. I
wanna wish that my life is not so miserable. Everyday I am so lonely. I
need a friend that I can really trust. I always wish that I could die
fast. But I wanna know what my future is gonna be. Am I gonna be miserable
or I'm gonna have my happiness back? It depends in my future. People say, if you
smile everyday, your problem will just disappear. But I tried it doesn't
happen. I don't wanna pretend that I'm happy.
People say I'm happy but I'm confused.. I don't really understand what
is the meaning of life. Why we had to live? Why we need to love ? Why we
need happiness to get through the day? Why can't we go on just normal
without those emotions? Why ? Why do we begin if we don’t plan to
finish? Why do we love if we don’t want to get hurt? Why do we live if
someday we must die? Why do we smile if we really hurt inside? Why do
we frown when everything is upside down? Why do we plan but not take to
action? Why do we cry when someday it will be alright? Why do we get
mad if we really should be glad? Why do we morn when somebody is gone? Why do we say hi if we really mean goodbye? Why do we question what
shouldn't be questioned? And answer what shouldn't be answered? tell me
now? Why? What is LOVE? I don't understand. And why does love never
find me instead broken hearts surround me. And once again the wrong man
found me. Saying he wouldn't hurt me but in the end he didn't deserve me.
What Is Love? And why doesn't love know my name? I prayed to god that it
would change. But true love never came. What Is Love? I ask myself time
after time, why is love so blind, or I shouldn't waste my time. I guess broken hearts are only made for me. Because love finds everyone else but
love never found me. Ya now I know. I shouldn't be love by someone. I
should be alone and be happy by myself. This is my life, now I know. It is
so great that it make me cry. I'MMA NO ONE!
Ohmy. This is what I wrote before in my diary. Too many question. Too little to answered.